This is alarming..and that this is the dreaded time since I got off from work..the time that I'll be bored.
I've dreamt of me being so relaxed and worry free but, afraid that it's going the other way around and that I tend to worry too much and I tend to over think as there are plenty of idle times for me to do that...oh god help me.
And siguro, I might have over done it did I?
I might have expected something more, I assumed I hoped and now Im wondering.
These past days have been yeah happy, but somehow there's this void, kinda small pa before but now feeling ko lumalaki and any moment now could sucked up the natitira hope saken. I am a lil worried and I am now not that happy, my bliss is fading I don't know why. I have to reassess more and to reflect more.
Question - I wanna know why this feel so right (or if felt right)
Are you playing the role, just like the rest?
I'm missing...I am still waiting until now...I plan to retire early for the night but I am waiting for something...
Earlier in the day, and some conversations before, I find myself hurt yet I could not say and also could not restrict him, he is happy.
Siguro I tend to cling to I thought something was there?? And right now I'm in this emotional hurricane if I'll be the one to initiate.
Again- there's a point of comparison but again - siguro lang I expected which was very natural of me. I should have asked but find myself too chicken to do that as I might be disappointed of the answer. It's terrible being me now.
Hope it'll get better soon.
This is how I'm bored..sana..sana lang!
I miss..terribly :)
