unplanned

I didn't expect this day would run like this. I have a plan, made last Friday, although not a plan-plan but at least I have something to do on a Saturday. But due to the headache, as in THE Headache, it kept me inside the house and kept me off my routine. Well honestly, I don't have a lot, I'm sounding like I have go-sees or deadlines to meet but, I think you can relate if you have already a concrete map on your head for a day, then will go off. Woke up with a throbbing head, really really throbbing head. Woke up very early from the last day, well came home late as in the morning late. But I didn't have that before, I always come home early in the morning every Saturday, to wake up around noon, eat and head to the gym. Looking forward nman to a strength cardio workout as advised by my trainer but it didn't happen. I stayed home, my laptop was my loyal companion all through the day. It really kept me off balance as I am constantly checking my mails, and FB notifications and..ok here's another story.

Woke up as well woth someone calling, I can barely move to reach my phone. I think ti was just 2 minutes and stopped ringing. I texted and received no reply. 3 times I tried but to no avail. With the headache, that adds up to my misery. I can't even finish this blog.

By now, my headache is gone...and I'm watching SATC 2 LOL.

IM BOOKED HP7

I can't believe that it's going to end, well at least the movies...Harry Potter that we have been following for years now, it ended with 8 movies, the last movie was split in 2 and I am so excited, yet a little sad, because we are already booked and we will be watching it, for the first time in IMAX. Honestly more expensive, but dunno, it should end with a bang I guess!Booked the first day as maluluma na kc, and we want to catch it while it's still fresh, kc me pirated na siguro on it's second day or third day..OA ryt but true..

Still getting goosebumps every time I watch the trailers although I;ve played it for more than 20 times, hehehe!

HEAVY!

eavy - that's a one word that I can give out today.

Just watched a new episode of glee tonight and it brought me to tears...again...I swear. The thought of losing someone makes me weep, and tonight was about death. How in the world can I handle that. And in all fairness, from all the write ups that I've read prior to this Wednesday, it did justice. I meant they did not overkill it or overemphasize death but, the go on thru their normal loser lives and go on. I loved it.

earlier with work it was heavy as well. The pressure really creeps me up, and dunno how I still wake up and drag my self to the bathroom every morning to prepare for work when all I can have are push and commands and all that stuff. I was up for this, however I've been on this state for close to a month now. I'm not complaining, it's just that - kulang na kulang pa b, hinde pa b sapat, binigay kong lahat panahon ko sa yo. That was the killer line form Joy and Bev's song.

And got a little serious with my friend over the communicator and might have spilled so much but I'm not taking it back or anything..I just spilled all, and that made me nahihiya pag nakgita uli kami. It's all kaartehan and self inflicted but again, tis is how I'm that stubborn. If I cared that much would it be held against me?

And the killer line - Do you expect?

I'm honestly not ready for that, but I kept on shielding by again, being stubborn ass my self everything that we've been through. It's chaos, it's complicated, it's all me. Heavy.

untitled

this day started a little off, as I know it was a saturday but I woke up pretty early to prep up for ahmm nothing, I'm on rest day and should be staying longer in my california king bed..taray!

But TBF (to be fair) I've pretty much executed my plans for today..laundry - I used all the sun's prowess to dry my clothes (did not like during mid day as it was veryy hott - mind the doubles).

after I ate my ahmm bfast and lunch, took a bath then head to dreamland again...u know how u felt like ur eyelids are closing themselves out of sleepyness..that's what I felt so I gave in. Duh, I love sleeping because you see in my dreams you love me..awww

I read a book - the hunger game book 1 and dozed off and suddenly awaken by the heat...Oh god, it was unbelievable and couldn't go back to sleep so I decided to eat (again) ..I cooked sinigang BTW and it was great!....and then turned on the TV to find Sarah Geronimo waiting for jOhn lloyd and waiting and I was hooked...Kakahiya man, I loved the movie and at some point cried over it, the feelingero that I was...hahahaha

The day ended with me writing on this blog...and before that having a phone conversation that could have lasted until the other day but worthwhile and always thanking him for hearing my side and nakakatiis sa mga rants ko..hahahaha Thank God for giving me besh Harky...

PS - we were texting pala Bes Cha and I ..the usuals..she just celebrated her 28th bday..we surprised her and all..hope she liked it....and as we speak she still rants on how boring her day was...Happy Easter everyone!

Prayer number 2

thank you's.....

This year was a little different - I wasn't on leave during my bday, but 1 day after including weekends and one transition off for a tuesday to saturday week, so all in all 6 days but felt like 2 days..dunno. another thing was I was far off literally, Migs' rest house was faaaaar. It was like 2 hours from Lipa but then worth it as I celebrated it with my best of friends whom I dearly adorSd as they took their time to be with me. some really asked for a day off from work, some had prior engagement so sweet of them sniff sniff. I had it planned months before and finally settled to having it since Migs brought it up one time we were talking on how to celebrate my bday. It was a jackpot as I wouldn;t have to spend for the location so I took it. I'm in tears drafting this, tears of joy....

So thank you to:
Migs - for the place, for the effort. I know you have an interview for your new work hours prior to our event but you made your way and celebrated with us. Thanks for making my Janice happy.

Janice - thanks for all for putting up with me and for being always there. remember you are the only one that I got...so please remain for the mean time and let's be joyous and happy and all that...thank you so much..labyu!!

Cha - besh cha...we've been through a lot..frenemies and all but remained as close as ever..we know each other so well..thank you for being with me always..morning..afternoon..evening..twilight..and darkness and even in our lowest of our low - kahit walang pangshopping or pang SB..I so love you u know that...

Lorie - my pretty L..I know you have sacrificed this date for your other set of friends and I so love you for that...and sorry if I was being hard on you regarding this event..hehehe...ang mahalaga u were there with me, with us and ever so lovely...I love you.

Ghe - 'twas far but then you were able to make it..thank you for joining..thank you for approving Cha's VL..thank you and hope you had a good time

Bullet - your energy was unbelievable, dunno where you are getting that..thank you for taking your day off..going back to Lipa and being with us...funny funny night we had, can't imagine without you in it...

maydee - I remember the first time I told you about this event, you immediately filed for a leave and like in a day twas settled that you will come with us..thank you for your spirit and we'ff be forever friends..straight from shift - just like janice your a cowgirl and joined us (not to mention your period)

Val - my brother, can't thank you enough. The week was intense, and I know soo much was going on but you made it and that's what important. We had so much before and we became much more solid I wish you the best on the other account, I know you will exel.

Jerick - I was a little hard, and my words we're sarcastic but you were as always gracious, no words just actions and I like that. Thanks you for being there

harky - besh, you were the non-Lipa resident on the list yet you were with us as early as 9 am on March 18..our long talks, calls and kulitans hope it will last and thank you for putting up with me, im so maarte and tampuhin you already know that and you already know the other stuff...and the team was so happy having you..Thank soo much...

It ended with a Renfel dinner - all of us were really tired and sleepy. I wish that I was able to make them happy, I hope they enjoyed and hope that at least I took their mind off their work or anything that occupies their mind. My wish - alam na ni Lord yun, prayer number 2 po..sana sana sana!!! Thanks God!

I AM 29...

t's been probably ages since the last time I wrote on this blog, who cares, no one ever cares to read this - ipot ng aking utak or sige na nga pensieve from the harry potter movies whish I'm so raving and a little sad since the last film will be shown this June. Anyways, so that was my 29th bday. No fireworks, no special something none...I thought ..... looong pause I sort of flipped pages for inspirations...

so there, I will just rant on how boring my life is or no, just my effing birthday...It was not the birthday that I hoped for, but I have never been to work ever....during my big day so there's none to compare it with..but I admit, it's kinda sad. Special shout out to my team, we had potluck and boy..I was sooo busog then I thought the day would just end. Special shout out to my besh prenship for giving me 3 cake pops, soo good (and sweet) it'll make your tooth, literally decay wahahaha sa sobrang katamisan..but it was very good...They were gracious enough to be with me during the dinner. I thought they were so thoughtful - Lorie, Cha and Mike.

I am 29 and very thankful. It will be great if my prayer number 2 will be granted.

CKB

I first heard this song, I think Wednesday and could not stop humming and singing, as of writing, I had played it 500 times on Itunes, it's on repeat and my sleeping song (previous one was leave right now by Will Young).

It gave me chills and at times very teary eyed (harte) listening to this song.

This was the killer line...
Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused wanna ask you if you love me
But I don't wanna feel so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming..

Hope this is her next single with a killer video..OMG, I can't wait! sniff!

CKB

I first heard this song, I think Wednesday and could not stop humming and singing, as of writing, I had played it 500 times on Itunes, it's on repeat and my sleeping song (previous one was leave right now by Will Young).

It gave me chills and at times very teary eyed (harte) listening to this song.

This was the killer line...
Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused wanna ask you if you love me
But I don't wanna feel so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming..

Hope this is her next single with a killer video..OMG, I can't wait! sniff!

This one's serious...get ready!

I received a text kanina from Bianca Gonzales ... ok fine I subscribe to her fantxt, it was like 2 years already and still enjoying. anyways, she said, she always pours her heart over blogging and should be meaningful and all that. I felt like she pointed me out, considering the posts that I made, was just to fill the void of this blog, anyways no one is reading except me.

Anyways, what to write..well it's the New Year so anything NEW

- I am going to lose weight that I enrolled myself in our local gym (and as I am writing this, I am feeling the pain, no pain no glory, hope it's all worth it). I eat less now, like super less, I am hungry for 4 days now. My friends said to not overdo it, but I'm so serious I want to expedite the process. I got lots of support BTW on my first day so I will be very serious about this stuff. Hopefully I could take off my shirt during our team outing or in March, my birthday month. Naks

- I will save now. For years now, I admit I've been very very costly and that most of that goes into food, clothing and gimik. I haven't started yet, but I will starting with my credit cards. I promise not to use them anymore until it gets paid off and will sure to cut those, to save me from tukso of spending it. Hayy, I know little by little I can execute that.

- I will be me and will express my self more this year. I haven't read any predictions yet, haven't check if this is my year but will make sure, I get lots of a hell fun, like what I did on the last 2 quarter of last year. I am now into customize clothes to fit me more (contradicts the former resolution), I wear what I want and will not subject myself to trends or whatever (kelan ba aku nagpadala), I'll be more active on this blog, God help me pour out my ideas so that I can put that into writing and be more ME. I will not care what other people might say - at this day and age, I'm kinda scared but will not care anymore, there will be exceptions of course, but majority...that's it!

- I'll read more books and file them (or will buy a new book cabinet..

- I'll have more friends and will be a great friend to them(will retain this)

- I'll be closer to HIM or Whoever I'm sending this to. I admit that I sometimes forget how important spirituality is, I contradict, I don't attend mass regularly and replace it with mundane activities and that I could stand for an hour but stays 6 long hours during concerts..and stuff, I can't write it's too graphic for me I end up crying.

And lastly, to cry it all out. Sometimes emotions needs to flow, together that salty tear, it may still be there..the feeling but at least, I guess less feeling as most of it already flowed out. People may wonder, what do I cry about, but trust me, I'm a simple human being as well, whatever your reason for crying will be the same reason for me too. And will not hide it.

Post script - my prayer number 2. Hope it will come true this year because I am ready now, I am so ready whoever that is will be treasured..so there....

Hayy ang arte right!
I know right, but true!