that feeling....

I'm in a place right now where I am unsure if I would go back or walk straight ahead.

I had been praying, God you know that I've been praying hard for this yet I am still unsure if this is it. That's my problem yet I like the feeling, but I'm unsure. But I'm happy.

I will be going to HK (and Macau) tomorrow and will carry this feeling of kinda bliss but a little speck of worry and question but I think I will go on. I hope this carry me through our adventure on a different land tomorrow. The farthest I will go since the Bacolod/Iloilo trip I had back in August. I'm so excited, I don't know what to feel. Part of me wants to just be here and feel that but another part of me wants to go and fly those foregin land. I hope when I get back, it will still be the same or hoping for more.

God, is this it?

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I so like this One republic/sarah bareilles song that it's on repeat for the whole day earlier - when I commute to work early in the morning and when I rode back home this night. So heartbreaking, it touches my heart and it always had me close to crying. I heard this one, on one episode of TVD and researched on it. This is my song for the moment.